few months ago I was in a state of total anxiety.
Everything was seemingly well in my life: academic performance stable, good relationship with family and friends, a loving bond of two years and living alone. However, something happened.
For several days I was confused, everything was uncertain. I felt a terrible emptiness inside of me and did not understand why. That gap led me to wonder whether the activities actually performed routinely filled me, if people who shared my life had I had chosen as fellow travelers, whether acting as myself and others deeply reflected my be.
was a great surprise, and certainly not pleasant, when I realized I had lost track of the way: I did not enjoy the simple things lost in an unnecessary routine, sometimes acting inertia, many repressed feelings, not read more books for Geology and not writing as much as I liked years ago. Simple and important changes needed in my life.
Without really knowing what was new was anxious, I decided to seek another perspective of my interests: hold on to the detachment of my routine and even some people.
A week later I was single and traveling in Argentina.
I visited my grandmother who lives in the province of Tucumán, in northern Iraq. While there arose a trip to Rio Cuarto, Cordoba, and then Merlo-San Luis, where I met good people and beautiful places.
Determined to return to my payments with my renewed energy and doing time in the capital city of Cordoba by a pedestrian walking alone I approached the window of a bookstore and there was this book ... " reach the top and keep climbing " by Jorge Bucay . Without hesitation, my last dollars, I went and bought it without knowing what it was.
All the way back I was reading it and I came to understand my concerns . The inspirational words were in the chapter titled The starting point and were as follows:
" the spiritual path, as far as I can understand today is the last, the highest and unlike all the others start to finish. Different in the end, because you may never end and there is no output, even to another plane, different in the beginning because most people who go through to assure us they found him, encountered him, sometimes even surprised without any awareness of having been looking for. A road surfaces, like a raft to be able to get when you realize that is kind of a castaway in the bottomless sea fleet of its shortcomings. A vacuum, sometimes infinite, we discover within us believe that only after we have more or less harmonized (oh ... wishful thinking) the inside to the outside. One can get silly, you can look the other way, you can try to downplay the experience of the spiritual. You can hide in the most rational intellect and controller, or can numb your feelings with unbridled consumption and real objects of comfort, but that is not enough (it never is), spirituality is still there, demanding his attention, and you will find it every time you overwhelm this odious sense of lack. Guides, teachers, and mystics warn you again and again that there will come a time when everything you learned, what you've got to do, everything you feel and what you have harvested, all you have and what want to have, not reach, want not something else. And you'll notice, though no one tells you, that this something that you need to complete yourself, has nothing to do with the material, nor success, nor glory. It is time to actively take care of your appearance to give rise to more spiritual, with responsibility and accountability. Can occur at any time in your life, it may take decades, but always comes, in one way or another, always enters the spiritual plane. Sometimes gently without awareness of what is happening, as much with a slight subjective sensation of a change not fully understood, sometimes restlessly like a big explosion. Half of the time, the explosion takes the form of something that draws from our pushing inside to let it go, as many as a simple implosion from outside to inside, where all boundaries vanish with the brutal environment and return to being one with the universe . "
That was the answer to my bewilderment, at the right time: he needed to pursue my spirit to know me, find my way and let myself go .
Since then, my outlook on life is different. I resumed reading, writing, people walked away from distracting my growth, secure links sincere and natural, I recognized that every person and situation are unique, hence the importance of learning from them.
Today I can say that there really is an amazing and wonderful complement between nature and essence of the soul, I would not have wasted on silly distractions.
I think it's all about relaxing a little and wonder if the life I live today is what I choose to live.
I like Coelho's phrase that shares in his book "The Alchemist " when you really want something the whole universe conspires for you to make your wish, and sincerely so that ....
Being a
with "I" am is the answer, is how to transcend ... is the way to begin to grow.
By Karen Alurralde.
Photo: Nehuén Chambon
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